| 1. Chocolate
2. Fuzzy sweaters
3. Swimming
4. Singing
5. Dancing
6. Friends
7. Music
8. My Car
9. Long Drives With Good Friends
10. The Home Depot
11. Calculus
12. American English
13. Spooning
14. Bicycling
15. Hot Coffee
16. Iced Coffee
14. Milk and Cookies
15. Earrings
16. Elegant Jewelry
17. Holding Hands
18. Cooking for Others
19. Slippers
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| I thought I might start posting on here again. Happy December everyone. I was just reading though all of my old posts. A lot has happened since my last post. Had a boyfriend, been engaged... now single again. Finished Undergrad, moved to Arizona for a job.... didn't really have a job, moved back to IL. And now I'm living back at home trying to get myself back on track. The last few months have been crazy! I'm doing better now though. I've got a part time job at The Home Depot. The pay isn't great, but it is more than minimum wage (if only slightly) and I will have health benefits soon. I've nearly finished my graduate school applications. I'm not sure how much I really want to go to graduate school, but now is the time to apply if I think I might want to go at all next year.
This seems sufficient for getting back into the blogging for now. L8er. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | "The Joker" | | Subject: | Confused. | | Time: | 04:31 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/loxocosmic/lumplings/confused.gif) confused |
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| | I am confused. What in the heck do I want? What am I looking for? What do I want to do? What? Which? Where? When? Who? So many questions... sooooo confused... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So, week three of classes is almost over. How in the heck did that happen? Classes are going ok. I probably should be trying a little harder in my history... and probably my art history class, but I'm really trying to focus on my major classes. TAing... I get my first giant pile of labs to grade tomorrow. I can't begin to tell you how excited I am about that... What else... Physics club. Physics club is going pretty well. We have definitely grown in numbers this year! Yay! Hopefully people will continue to come to the meetings, and hopefully they will participate in our events! I think as far as my involvement in our outreach program goes though, I think I might be volunteering for that less. I also start my first day of research for the semester tomorrow. Woot. 8am baby.
And lastly... I, that's right, me, I am going to join the circus. Well, at least I probably will be joining the circus. My limitations 1)I can't afford to commit the time to it. 2)I am so bad that I don't make any acts. Now, as far as reason number two... that's not truly a legit reason for not joining the circus, I don't have to make the show to actually be in the circus, but it almost seems silly to keep going, unless I really want to be in it next year. This whole circus thing scares me a little bit though because I do have a bit of a fear of heights. That makes it a bit difficult for me to do things like... trapeze... which I tried today... or probably spanish web, that kind of thing.
All I have to say is that I am going to have some nice abs by the time this semester is over if I keep up with both Circus and my ballet class.
On a completely different note, I just made some banana bread. My roommates and I are pretty excited about it, but the recipe called for pancake batter, so we'll see... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Hair | | Subject: | Friday night. | | Time: | 10:15 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/loxocosmic/lumplings/lazy.gif) content |
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| So, it's friday night, and I am here writing in my journal. I have to admit, that's a pretty exciting friday. Then again it is only 10:15, maybe something will happen yet. Doubtful though considering a)most people have gone home for the weekend, it being labor day and all and b)I think I might just start getting ready for bed after I'm done writing this. That's alright though.
Let's see. Week two of classes done. Classes are going alright so far. So far I am mostly on top of my homework... although I forgot to do a history extra credit assignment. I'll live though. My TA job hasn't really kicked in yet. I've, I guess, monitored two labs this past week, but neither of them have required any grading for me yet... that will start next friday. Bring it on... 83 labs in one section. And the following week I'll have a second class also. 83 labs + another 38 or something like that. Woot. I'm excited.
My ballet class... What to say about it. I am so out of shape. I really have lost a lot in the three years that I have been out of lessons. Not only am I just plain out of shape and bad at doing the steps, but I also have lost the ability to remember combinations easily... and if that is not bad enough, I have also lost a lot of my vocabulary. So basically even if my teacher is saying the steps as we are doing them, I don't know what to do... It will get better though. I will get better, and I will get in better shape. Bring on the sweat.
It looks like I will be continuing physics research this semester. I somehow managed to squeeze that into my busy schedule. That too will start next week. Woohoo chaotic waterwheel here I come! Oh, and I will have to talk to my professor to see what the deal is, but I might be giving a presentation at Argonne in November, or at least I hope that I will. I always hear stuff about this conference, and it seems like a good place for undergrads to present their research.
Phew... That was a lot of typing. Later... Alligator ;-) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | music straight out of Jr. High/ early HS | | Subject: | Yeah, it's been a while | | Time: | 01:01 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/loxocosmic/lumplings/hungry.gif) hungry |
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| So, It's been a while for those few of you who do read my journal. In any case, I am at school now. Well I suppose to be more accurate I should say that classes have now started. Week one done. I don't really feel like I have that much work to do right now, but I know it's coming, I've got 17hrs... Two physics classes, differential equations, two gen eds, and I added a ballet class last minute just for some extra fun. Hopefully that will be just that and not add to my stress this semester because of how little time I will have. I also have, I guess, two and a half classes I am TAing for. The half- Something got really goofy with the scheduling this semester, so me and one other person are sharing the lab, but he has the grading for it, leaving me with the other two classes I was originally supposed to grade and monitor. I'm still an officer for the Physics club, so that will have a bit of a time commitment, but I don't think it will cause me much of an issue. And lastly, I am hoping I can squeeze in some time to continue the research project I was working on last year. We'll see, my "business hours" are pretty full up right now...
Hmm... what else... no boys to speak of the moment. That's probably a good thing... although it is a bit sad. Oh, and I now have less than a year until my 21st birthday! Barely, but it is a fact. I went to the corn festival down here at school. That was good. Yummy corn, and I got a henna tattoo. I've been wanting one of those for close to a year now! Picture soon to be on facebook... maybe, if I remember to take one. I guess that is good for now. Adios. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| So, I am home for the weekend. Sister's graduation party is tomorrow... today, whatever. Anyway, I'm bored and I have a song stuck in my head so I thought I'd share it with you. Well, just part of it.
"I really love your peaches, want to shake your tree."
That's the line that keeps running through my head. Name the song. Adios! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | I do not have that job at the local hot dog joint. I told you I wasn't counting on it until I worked my first shift. Oh well I still have one job, and I'll keep looking for another. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | only the lovely swishing noise from the dishwasher | | Subject: | boys | | Time: | 11:40 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/loxocosmic/lumplings/eegh.gif) stressed |
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| Why can't I seem to figure this out? I always confuse myself. Or I screw something up. I am too forward, or not enough... usually the latter. Whatever, boys are stupid. My new theory is that they need to learn to read people's minds. But good luck to that happening. Maybe I should just learn to cope with the fact that they can't, and I should figure out what I need to do to be more assertive and clear. Maybe the first step is being clear to myself. Or maybe the first step is to stop maybe-ing, to stop what if-ing. Whatever. Boys are stupid.
Why on earth did I want to come back down here so bad. I know what terrible of a headache it gives me during the year. I don't need that in the summer as well. Next time I think about doing this slap me.
On another note, I found out I do have my job at that local hot dog joint. Although I'm still not counting on it until I actually work my first shift, or maybe I should extend that to when I get my first paycheck...
Stupid Boys... | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Dad's Snoring behind me | | Time: | 01:01 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/loxocosmic/lumplings/blah.gif) bored |
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| Hi everyone,
Well, It's been a while since I updated. Not too much has been going on. I've been home for the past month or so taking a summer school class. Nearly finished with it though! Thank Goodness. I've only got one more class which will basically consist of one last test. Phew. Then I'll be done with linear algebra forever (*knock on wood*). Then Sunday I head back down to school for the remainder of the summer. It looks like I'm going to have quite a bit of work ahead of me. I have yet to decide if I want to/ can keep my job I got at the hot dog stand. Course that is pending they still want to hire me. I suppose I'll just see how it goes, although I have a lot of days I've been realizing that I'm wanting to go back home. Basically If I go home for all of those, I'll only end up working like 4 weekends. We'll see what happens. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Mostly all I have to say is that I am just getting ready to sleep in my dorm room for what will probably (hopefully) be the last time I ever sleep in a dorm! :-) I move into my apartment on monday. After that I will be going home for 6 weeks to take a summer school class. I know everybody loves retaking linear algebra... I know I'm going to have a blast. Anyway, after that I'm coming back down to school to live in my apartment and work. I've got two jobs as far as I can tell, and I think that shall keep me busy enough. I'm working as a Teaching Assistant for the Physics Department M-R, and I'll be working at a local hot dog joint evenings and weekends. I'd love to have people come visit me this summer and I can show off my apartment, woohoo... anyway, gots to get up early to do dorm check out. goodnight! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | none | | Subject: | And so. | | Time: | 03:04 pm | | Current Mood: | calm |
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| | Finals Week is upon me. I'm not particularly worried, although maybe I should be. It seems that in almost all of my classes I am on the borderline between grades. I'll be done with finals by thursday and then I'll just be around chilling until I can move into my apartment on monday. This does however pose the small problem of where I'll be staying on Sunday night because I get kicked out of my dorm at noon. I'll figure it out though... I hope. Anyway to everyone else who finds themselves in the midst of finals, I wish you good luck! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | none | | Current Location: | dorm | | Subject: | Update... | | Time: | 01:25 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/loxocosmic/lumplings/sad.gif) disappointed |
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| | So... I'll make this short and to the point. Same boy I was sort of seeing... He told me today that he is does not really think he is ready for dating. Which I guess only upsets me because I totally knew that that was going to happen, and I didn't listen to myself. I am glad he told me though. Tomorrow would been a week since he asked me if he liked me, so it's not like this really dragged on very long before he told me. However, he said that he tends to get over things very quickly and might decide he is ready to start dating me in a month. I won't hold my breath though. I'm a lot more cooled down now than I was earlier, and I still don't know exactly why I got as upset as I did. This is good though. At least he is trying to understand what it is he is truly feeling. And on the other hand, I'm not sure I was being entirely fair to him either. Honestly, I am not sure what it is that I am looking for myself. Maybe by the time he figures out what he wants, I'll figure out what I want, and vice versa. I might be forgetting to write something I wanted to say, but this is the main point. Call me if you want more details. If I think of anything else super important I'll post it. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So... remember how in one of my semi-recent, past post's I was talking about how I had been involved in a love triangle, and lost?? This time is sort of the opposite... only more complicated...
So, I'll attempt to give you the short update:
I met this guy in the fall semester at work. We'd only actually worked one shift together, but somehow we managed to become good friends. After winter break, we really started to hang out a lot more and became even better friends. All this time I knew he had a girlfriend, so I was only thinking of hanging out with him as a friend. Actually once in a while he would hit on me or do something that would make me uncomfortable and I would bluntly remind him he had a girlfriend. So, one day, about a month and a half ago, he tells me that he broke up with his girlfriend (of, I think, almost 2 years), and to this day he says that this had absolutely nothing to do with me. Which I believe, although originally I had my doubts. So... now as of this week, he asked me if I like him as more than a friend, which I do, although up until then I'd been suppressing my feelings due to the whole situation. Now, however, I feel like we have to bee sneaking around because, really he... and I... are afraid of what his ex will do. I think she sort of knows something is going on now. She called him tonight upset because she felt that he had broken up with her for another girl. I don't like that I feel as though I am in the middle of this. This guy insists that I shouldn't worry about it though. I don't see how I can not worry about it though... I don't know what to do. I don't know if there is something I should/ can do... | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| First of all, I would like to say that this is almost completely pointless seeing as how I'm so insanely busy that a boy is the last thing I need. I wouldn't have the time. Nonetheless, it still might be nice. I don't doubt that if I found a boy I might be able to make some time on the weekend. Heck anytime after 8 I usually give up on studying. That ought be good enough... right? :-/
Anyway, I am around boys all freaking day long. It really starts to make my head spin after a while. I get the vibe from some that maybe they do like me, and unfortunately I do not like them...
And then when it comes to who it is I do like, well... I have no freaking clue what he thinks of me.
Love is such a ridiculous game. Everyone is always trying to guess what the opposite sex is doing... well I guess I shouldn't discriminate here. Let me rephrase. Everyone is trying to guess what the person whom they like is doing. Anyone have any tips on how to subtly let someone know you like them... I mean really subtle... but not so subtle they won't notice... oy... that's the trick. I can never get it right either.
Oh, so on another note, my friend, who is a gay asian boy, and I mean that literally... he actually is gay (you have to be careful about how you use that word now a days)... anyway. He asked me out. And I was like, "you're gay." To which he responded, "yes, but I date girls." After he explained it it was kind of sweet. Nonetheless I said no. Basically, he said the kind of attraction he has toward me is like that of a child in grade school. Remember when people would "date" in grammar school??? That's the way he feels towards me. He is attracted to me... but not sexually... that's where the boys come in. Anyway.
So, in short, I am around boys too much, I've been asked out by a gay boy, and I don't know what to do about the boy I like. Ahhh!!!!! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | KYO- they're an awesome French Band | | Subject: | quiz | | Time: | 07:29 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/loxocosmic/lumplings/upset.gif) discontent |
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| the Questioner
Test finished! | you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX.
"I am affectionate and skeptical"
Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family,
friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved
and timid to outspoken and confrontative.
How to Get Along with Me
- Be direct and clear.
- Listen to me carefully.
- Don't judge me for my anxiety.
- Work things through with me.
- Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
- Laugh and make jokes with me.
- Gently push me toward new experiences.
- Try not to overreact to my overreacting.
What I Like About Being a Six
- being committed and faithful to family and friends
- being responsible and hardworking
- being compassionate toward others
- having intellect and wit
- being a nonconformist
- confronting danger bravely
- being direct and assertive
What's Hard About Being a Six
- the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
- procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence
in myself
- fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
- exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
- wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
- being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations
Sixes as Children Often
- are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and
stubborn
- are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
- form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
- look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority
and rebel
- are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families,
and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent
Sixes as Parents
- are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
- are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
- worry more than most that their children will get hurt
- sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries
Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele
The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages
You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose CY
Would you rather have chosen:
AY (EIGHT)
BY (FOUR)
CX (TWO)
CZ (ONE)
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My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 0% on ABC | | You scored higher than 55% on XYZ |
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| | I forgot to make a post yesterday. So, I'd like to wish each and every one of you who reads my page a Very Happy Valentine's Day! :-) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | The History Channel | | Subject: | Drugs... | | Time: | 11:29 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/loxocosmic/lumplings/exhausted.gif) sleepy |
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| | So... I've been kind of goofy all day. I'm on too many drugs. I went to the doctor on monday only to find out that I have a strained neck muscle. They gave me both a muscle relaxant and a pain killer. Both of which make me quite sleepy and loopy. That is all. I am going to bed. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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